December has arrived...

and I’m feeling a little out of sorts. December is usually quiet for me, work wise but after a November lockdown it’s even more so, which makes me feel a little more lost than usual at this time of the year. Normally I relish the fresh start of January approaching - new diaries and notebooks and grand planning - but when the future feels uncertain (despite the news of an approved vaccine) it just doesn’t feel right to think about travel adventures or grand work ideas when really we can only still take it a few days at a time.

I feel full of ‘should's’ I should be practising, I should be pushing through on personal projects, I should be doing yoga, I should clean the house, I don’t ‘feel’ like doing any of those things right now, the studio is still in chaos from the last work project I completed over a week ago. I’ve just shut the door to the mess.

I did cave into one should, I should finish the visual diary of our lockdown time. From the last day of school on March 20th until they returned in September. I had done a few months but the upkeep got lost in the monotony of providing hourly snacks and weeping through maths home school. Spurred on by a 40% discount code that would only last for 2 days - I sat and I completed it. Summer and the initial lockdown seems so far away already, it was good to revisit and see those sunny memories, I know it’s been an awful year, financially it’s been tough but I believe my two - only 5 & 7 - got through it relatively unscathed. Currently their days are filled with school and Christmas planning and whilst it looks different - the masks, audience free Christmas nativities and performances - they are happy. And I believe looking back, for the most part they were happy during this time too. Sharing a few of those memories here and very glad I did complete that should. I look forward to having these and many more of the images I took during this time preserved in an album.

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